What does one do next....

So it's coming up to nearly 2 years now since I graduated from university, I ask myself what does one do now? Having a degree in animation but absolutely no idea where to look for a job *sighs* what to do now??? Having spent all this time effort and money at university to get the degree, and after spending almost a year searching for work (procrastinating in between as you do ;P) it seems like there's really nothing out there...Then my computer died on me and I didn't have one for over a year. do I even remember how to use any of the software I was taught? =/ As if I've wasted so much time working myself almost to death doing 2 crappy part time jobs...2012 and all it's traumatic events were quite possibly the worst year of my life...but that's another story...I really miss you Kaka...

However on the 24th November 2012 I got Baptised and gave my life to The Lord. Also on 6th December 2012 my beautiful niece was born. Those are 2 events I truly feel blessed by.

Anyhooo during my time in university I seem to have become quite distant from my dream of becoming an animator. Even though I have completed my degree in animation, at the time I wasn’t really keen on the project briefs and therefore the work I had produced. Hopefully it’s just a phase, and I’ll get back into it? I allowed myself to get too caught up in my modelling, even that I've slipped away from...I Have been neglecting the one thing I used to enjoy more than anything. So I actually bought myself a new sketch pad the other day and some pencils and hoping for the inspiration to create something amazing..I pray my love for art will come back..However everything happens for a reason, and that will only last for a season. I Trust in what God has planned in my life and all the madness has brought me closer to Him <3

^" For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

But the one thing I still have is my passion for anime...well kind of...still watch Gintama but that's about it, Family Guy and South park seem to have taken up a lot of my spare time. Hmm I guess my image is still anime influenced; I love wearing Circle lens, Thick eye liner, lashes etc. However it has evolved from the youtube video I made back in 2010 on my everyday anime eyes look =D

http://youtu.be/cZQRI7Zz0BE

I tend to try to vary between ulzzang and gyaru looks these days...I might go back and make more videos soon.

Since all the drama and depression of 2012 I have been neglecting and turning down all the modelling related work I'm offered. I used to love it. To be honest I stopped wanting to do anything...Just don't know what I want anymore. Modelling was fun but I honestly don’t want a career in it. I worked far too hard at uni to settle for that. I still want to do what I love for a living, drawing anime pictures and creating stories… *sighs* so where does one go from here in order to pursue ones dream…Lord give me a sign.